Im sorry if I haven't been posting much.. My N levels are drawing much much closer and there's been nothing to update on.. I'll try out a new makeup look I just thought of when I have the time..
Been stressing over my maths lately.. My maths is totally a disaster, getting good grades for the other subjects doesn't do any difference in my case, because once you fail your math and english, no matter how good your others are, you're STILL screwed. Honestly, I think its pretty unfair.. Im like putting my future on this gamble. I mean, I do not look down on ITE, but ITE doesn't offer the courses I want, and the stereotypes that people think of - its too much for me to handle because I am the kind of person who hates being discounted. Plus, there aren't many courses which does not require math - As from what I heard. Both NAFA and Laselle requires O level certs.. I am not very keen on entering Laselle however.. Im more for NAFA.
Im quite depressed over this. I should just, move to Japan and study there right? But it isn't that easy, because Vantan has certain requirements, if I kinda stop studying and move there, I would have to attend the last or two years of high school there, since you graduate at 17 or 18 there I think.. Im not exactly sure, I have to check it out. I don't think I can actually survive there anyway, I mean, Science, Maths, Geog, History and stuff, I have never went through any of those in Japanese, I wouldn't know how they say it, for example, times or divide or plus and stuff. Like what's amylase or trypsin called in Japanese and stuff, I wouldn't know. My Japanese.. Well I can speak and understand Japanese, but not to a very large extent, I would say its enough for proper conversations and watching shows without subtitles. But, of course there would be words I have never heard and stuff that doesn't pop up often. I don't get a lot of exposure and most of it is self taught, but I don't mess up my vocab. Its really stressful because of my weak foundation.. Im kinda sorta screwed, I just want to be a clothing designer and it really looks distant. Most of my friends have at least thought of stopping their studies or just feel like disappearing from the world, it seems common.
I don't know why I get all sentimental after typing most blog posts.
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