Chapter 41: Random post

Have been applying makeup for fun recently. Been trying to find an excuse to waste them since it's about time I threw them away. My perona wig arrived a few days ago. Did a little trial for Perona, tryin out the wig and costume and trying to do the makeup and stuff, I think it looks okay but I don't think I look like Perona.. And that's abit disappointing.. Shall work on it abit more. I'm not wearing her crown and hairties now because I'm still making it :x

Chapter 40: A 1 week summary

Hello! Many things have been going on lately.. And I swear, I've been really busy to even blog for abit!
Many things happened, both good and bad.

Good thing is, miraculously, my dad decided to change and I can see that and i'm really happy!

Recently, there's this boy who confessed, he is nice, yes. But we broke up yesterday night(Friday). He initiated it because he has his commitments and I have mine, so of course, I couldn't be more happy and agreed because I kind of regretted it so much by agreeing to be with him. He told me he wants us to be together again after the exams but.. Im sorry I don't plan and want to. The 3 days was torture because I didn't want to talk to him, I didn't want to see him. He was too clingy and the way he puts things, or makes his jokes, make me feel like he's talking to me like a retard. I felt like I was forced to say things I do not want, do things I do not want, putting on a farce. It was difficult and tiring. Ironic thing is, I liked him back, thats why I said yes. But now, I don't think so. We are still friends, nothing but just friends.

I have been having art art art for the entire week, staying back everyday due to the deadlines that were supposed to be met, stayed back in school till 9 for night study on Thursday. I must say its a new experience because the school was super dark and cold. Okay anyway, the bunch of art students im with are a bunch of freaking crazy and noisy as hell. Hahaha it was funny and I enjoyed it. It was also the last day of one of the art teachers there, and we clicked very well and had lots in common, it was sad seeing her leave, but it was good that we still kept contact!! Okay so it was time to go take attendance at 6:30 in the canteen, then there was this bunch of lower sec girls carrying a tray of leftover butter cakes. Then the boys beckoned them here and the second the tray was placed on the table, all the art boys rushed for them like wild animals oTL.. It was funny yet so lively and happening on our table. On our way back to the art room, one of them saw a lower sec guy and started running and then almost (purposely) banged into him, there was probably about a 5cm gap between both of them and he shouted BOO!! Hahaha omg I swear it was freaking hilarious, but I kinda felt bad for the lower sec boy.. Thennnnn...... on the way back, the rest of them started barking-__-;; and then making meowing, then bird noises, it was like a freaking zoo. And I swear we were the noisiest because the school was basically dead silent because there was like super super super little people around. Mrs Koh treated us to chicken rice!! How nice! :D And I bought another pack of happy snowskin~~ \o/



Yesterday was Racial Harmony Day! My whole class wore ethnic costumes! How awesome is that?! Me and Belinda wore Sabrina's kebaya! It was so pretty, and i'm like, HOW IS THIS NOT WORN FOR A WEDDING, ITS TOTALLY GORGEOUS ADFASDFASDF. I wore a white one and Belinda a red one that has a bit of a salsa vibe. Mine was more mature. I have group photos but it hasn't been uploaded yet T-T..


I have also recieved my yukata set and bought new lenses, will post it soon! Weeee~~

Chapter 39: Very bad lately

This is not really a rant, but more of a more personal post that I need to spill.
Things has been going smoother than the last few months lately, untill a few days ago when my sister kinda triggered me to kind of just break down. It's because of a small thing, but its actually very fustrating and sickening to hear and experience very often.

Thing is, my sister is very SPOILT. She basically whines and pesters my mother to get her what she wants, if not, her standard sentence comes out: "I'll pay for it myself, just take the money out from my bank!". And it makes everybody so fustrated because she doesn't get the fact that its meant for her education, no matter how much I explain to her, she's like oh nevermind theres still a long way to go.. So she got her way and got a new iPhone. Thing is, my bum of a father is not paying any bills. That means my mother's paying for everything, including his fucking huge phone bill and car loan, basically everything. So, more bills are being added into the things my mom's gonna pay for, this time, its double my sister's previous monthly phone bill.
Actually, this is still fine. I broke down because my sister and mother fought on the phone over dinner, which I am supposed to cook, so my sis called my mom to ask her if she wants her portion cooked or not. Well, don't know what happened but they sort of argued, so I asked my sis if mom wants anything, she said she doesn't know. Thats when I started to get a little bit pissed, then I asked her if she wants any, she told me don't know too!!! Thats when I actually got mad and told her if she doesn't know, how the hell am I going to cook anything? And she is also coming to me crying and whining that she's hungry and hasn't eaten since lunch at all. Feeling pissed already, I told her to cook some instant noodles, lol. But she went, "There isn't any curry one left! THAT MEANS I CANNOT EAT, BECAUSE NO CURRY FLAVOURED ONE!!". Told her to get the other one, she said no, she HAS to have the curry one or it means that she CAN'T eat. Irritating as fuck isn't it? Don't you feel like slapping her a gazillion times? So I was really at my boiling point and just scolded her and told her if she doesn't eat she can just rot and die of hunger in her room. I was at the wrong for a bit, but really, who wouldn't get angry if they ALWAYS have to deal with this kind of shit? So I just went into my room and broke down together with the stress of other things. Wasn't done crying but had to try to make the redness in my face gone because my father happened to come back home. Its kinda like, nobody has seen me cry this year, I try not to let anyone see.


But I accidentally cried infront of my mother because I couldn't control it yesterday.

And my father is back to his old ways again.. He is the worst.. Since it doesn't seem like he's learnt anything from his mistakes.. And he asked for money from my mother again, this time its the money she's gonna use to pay for the bills because she has no more to give him. It is because of him and his pride that everybody is in this state. He is not a bad father, but I am very very very angry with him. Mom told me this morning. I really do not want to live in fear everyday again and I am sick of it. I really would prefer living separately and not know him but I cannot hate him. This is not all but this is all I can reveal.

It is very difficult to act like everything is normal, because the tears are very difficult to hold back. It has been affecting me a lot recently, it has never been this bad before. Had to run to the toilet halfway today, if not I would have started crying in class. Have been staying back till quite late at school lately because I don't feel like going home at all, if not, I don't want to go out either.


I envy others.

Chapter 38: Interesting stuff & convex mirror girl

I got a free silver shimmer lipstick because I bought another lipstick, the same color as plum fizz. The color is really pretty! But I expected it to really be a solid color but it ended up being a tint-type color. A little dissapointed but it's very cheap so no complaints there. I'm a budget queen, lol.
Student. Not working. Fashion victim. Tight budget. You understand~ Not a trend follower though, I hate wearing what many people's wearing.

Posted a picture of the silver lipstick, it really is silver! How cool!!! And it's free(LOL)! But I hate the fact that its super smelly.

And bought a strawberry flavored rice cake today. First time eating this. Last day selling, I regret not buying more!!!! It's yummy!! But it tastes more apple-ish than strawberry-ish.. Interesting

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Okay, so apparently, I forgot about the convex mirror girl explanation thing. Most of you probably don't care, but I'll write it anyway. Because its a short thing LOL.

Basically, I feel like the convex mirror girl in Danshi koukousei.

Why? Because I really do act and behave like her, but yet totally different once I remove my glasses and let my hair down as well! Just a short explanation. And I felt like signing off with that anyways.

Chapter 37: Makeup experiment

Hello, played with some makeup today because I have wanted to try out something. ✧⁺᾽✴ ऀืົཽ ˡ̼̮ ऀืົཽ✴⁺’⁎✧ Anyway, used a few of my new makeup stuff, the ZA BB cream, 3 concept eyes eyeliner, daiso brown palette. Yes yes I know you cant really see and I apologize! (ू ˃̣̣̣̣̣̣o˂̣̣̣̣̣̣ ू)

Anyway, my views on the new stuff!（´・∀・｀）ノ
The ZA BB cream was good, I liked that light feeling, as if I'm not wearing any foundation!☆ Okay usually for me, after I put on foundation, my face feels "heavy((´･ｪ･`)). My routine is concealer-> Liquid foundation->Powder foundation to set the make up in. Pretty light, but it's just me. I will buy it when I finish my current free one ((˃̶〰ॢ˂̶๑ ). I cannot give this an accurate rating yet because it's the first usage, for now, I give it 4/5!

Second time trying the 3 concept eyes eyeliner on my eyes, still doesn't fail me. Although it cracks a little bit at the bottom eye corners where I put lots of black eyeliner(つд`). Although I have a good control of eyeliners usually, but the brush was a little tougher to manage but it was fine anyway. Still, I'd say that this is not very recommended for beginners. Dries super quickly(>̯-̮<̯). Would purchase it again, considering buying another one to keep!♪ I'd say 4/5!

As for the brown shimmer palette from Daiso, I will not say it is bad, but will not say that it's good. It has its pros and cons. The color is not very obvious, and when I took some to test the swatches on my hand, the color didn't show properly untill a few more tries, also the powder tends to "lump" a little bit, while applying it. That means, you will expect a bit of powder clumps that looks like tiny eraser dust. However you can use your fingers to go over it and it will be gone~ Happened only with the brown eyebrow color though. Overall, it's so-so. I do not have any complaints and would purchase it again, after all it's cheap and it's pretty decent for $2 and its not THAT bad, really! Probably every girl has an "auntie mode"in them, like me! ;)

Oh and I tried the horn hairstyle I saw in Ageha last year~

By the way, I'm using majolica majorca's "Blood On" on my cheeks! What a nice color~~~~

That's all for now,
♥Convex mirror girl.
(in reference to Danshi KK)

I will explain why I used convex mirror girl in the next post.

Chapter 36: Today's daiso buys~

Hello!
Haven't blogged in a while.. ˚‧º·(˚ ˃̣̣̥᷄⌓˂̣̣̥᷅ )‧º·˚ Didn't have anything to post about (I apologize for having a boring life LOL). Anyway, went to daiso today in hopes of getting clear lipgloss but noooo!!!!! It was sold out (꒦ິ⌑꒦ີ) and I have been looking forward so much to go buy it to try out a new makeup style... (╥ᆺ╥；) Guess i'll do it next time then. Bought Sakura Mochi flavored caramel corn! Thought it was pretty special so I bought it to try. I'd say it's pretty okay for me, just so-so, I dig the strawberry one more ((˃̶〰ॢ˂̶๑ ). Some people might not get used to it though, my sister prefers the original one over the Sakura Mochi one (,,Ծ‸Ծ,, ). I once saw weird flavors like soda and fruit punch. WANTTTTT TO TRYYYY!! Definitely gonna snag a soda one next time! Regret not buying because I kept pushing it back and back till its gone and not coming back so soon... Apparently.. (ԾεԾ|||) (At least the branch near me isnt probably gonna bring it in soon) Since it has been months since I last saw it LOL. Anyways, bought a shimmery eyeshadow palette in brown since its cheap, my friend said its good and the colors are good so I bought it to give it a try (>̯-̮<̯). I kind of feel I need a lot of browns as I use it more often so I bought it in brown ꒡͡ ો ̼̮ ꒡͡ . Since I have my 48 color coastal scents palette, I've got more than enough colors anyway~（*´・ε・*）will try my best to review it very soon, I hope I can do it tomorrow! I really want to review my Majolica Majorca eyeliner in gold, Majolica Majorca Blood on and this palette while trying out a new make style✧⁺᾽✴ ऀืົཽ ˡ̼̮ ऀืົཽ✴⁺’⁎✧. Ok, pictures now plus a random one of me~~~ LOL

Haven't cosplayed in a while now, but I'll be cosplaying as Perona. The ghost princess who appeared in Thriller Bark arc. Pre timeskip though.. Plus, our personalities match, she's cute too! I like her, she has a cute laugh. Have been trying to imitate her laughter fe a while now.. ( •ॢ◡-ॢ)-♡ I look forward to it so much! Also, have been a bit more busy lately, on my tiny online shopping service. It's a good thing though٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶ Have been watching one piece as usual, at merman island nowwww~~~