Chapter 46: I'm not dead yet!!

I've been studying like crazy the past few days, happy to say, my maths definitely improved, re-tried my prelim and the past year's N lv maths papers and happy to say I passed. It's all thanks to my friends and my maths teacher. I'm just so so so so touched that there are such kind people out there like Yong Sheng, Zero, Shera and around me because they have their own exams / year end projects to do and they offered to teach me! Im definitely NOT confident yet. So I hope this year's paper would be easier and not so many people would pass with high marks >_> not being an asshole but because of them the passing mark would be pushed further up. And I don't want to fail because of that. But I hope the passing mark drops too... It's quite selfish of me but hey, I think all the Singaporean kids would want the passing mark to drop! Busy for art too, what I've been doing.. LOL. And and my new clothes ordered from last month just arrived!! Yay!! I will take a picture of the haul after my exams end, which is the 4th!! And then 10th is the graduation day..Sob sob.. I shall post a picture of 1 of the items, my Yumetenbo cross wedges!! I think it was under their Dialle Liasen name.. I'm not sure but it's still from Yumetenbo anyway. I love their shoes! Even though it's so high, it's always stable!

Chapter 45: Recent stuff

I've been going crazy over this beautiful piece. I listen to Touhou doujin music everytime I need to sit down and do my art. Both Touhou orchestra and Touhou house mixes. Got 2GB of them. Hahahaha!
Im sorry if I haven't been posting much.. My N levels are drawing much much closer and there's been nothing to update on.. I'll try out a new makeup look I just thought of when I have the time..
Been stressing over my maths lately.. My maths is totally a disaster, getting good grades for the other subjects doesn't do any difference in my case, because once you fail your math and english, no matter how good your others are, you're STILL screwed. Honestly, I think its pretty unfair.. Im like putting my future on this gamble. I mean, I do not look down on ITE, but ITE doesn't offer the courses I want, and the stereotypes that people think of -  its too much for me to handle because I am the kind of person who hates being discounted. Plus, there aren't many courses which does not require math - As from what I heard. Both NAFA and Laselle requires O level certs.. I am not very keen on entering Laselle however.. Im more for NAFA.

Im quite depressed over this. I should just, move to Japan and study there right? But it isn't that easy, because Vantan has certain requirements, if I kinda stop studying and move there, I would have to attend the last or two years of high school there, since you graduate at 17 or 18 there I think.. Im not exactly sure, I have to check it out. I don't think I can actually survive there anyway, I mean, Science, Maths, Geog, History and stuff, I have never went through any of those in Japanese, I wouldn't know how they say it, for example, times or divide or plus and stuff. Like what's amylase or trypsin called in Japanese and stuff, I wouldn't know. My Japanese.. Well I can speak and understand Japanese, but not to a very large extent, I would say its enough for proper conversations and watching shows without subtitles. But, of course there would be words I have never heard and stuff that doesn't pop up often. I don't get a lot of exposure and most of it is self taught, but I don't mess up my vocab. Its really stressful because of my weak foundation.. Im kinda sorta screwed, I just want to be a clothing designer and it really looks distant. Most of my friends have at least thought of stopping their studies or just feel like disappearing from the world, it seems common.

I don't know why I get all sentimental after typing most blog posts.

Chapter 44: Just an update

Hello~ Haven't been updating for quite some time.. 

There really isn't anything to update about, everything's just... 

Really boring and stuff, so I've been spending my time watching anime on my to-watch list one by one.

Oh! And my new wig just arrived a few days back, sorry, webcam quality!! Ehehehehe..

Its not this dark, its more of a TAY(In Prisila wig color terms I guess?) color but slightly darker and more to the brown side rather than golden brown. And nayy this isn't a Prisila wig, its just something similar!

Drew my brows too, in this picture. Normally, I wouldn't, because I would look somehow like a mix of Indian and Chinese. Im not actually used to that sort of thing. BUT! I TRIED.

And it looks pretty good with this wig! I would try to fill in my brows more often I guess? Its the lacking part most of the time.. And watched some Monster High clips just now, I really like it! I find Monster High so cool. I like Cleo! And the Ice girl. I forgot her name, sorry. Hahahhaahaha! The makeup and clothes are just sooooo cute!! I should do a Monster High inspired look sometime. I will try.

And its about 2:54AM now, and I should really head to bed, really tired right now. Eyes threatening to shut any moment. Keeping it open with toothpicks now.

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I'm kidding, but there's really nothing to update. Good night!!

I APOLOGIZE FOR THE OPEN CUPBOARD, COZ IT LOOKS SO WEIRD.