Chapter 15: Spending habits (RANT)

You can skip this if you'd like. Its not important.

Lately, my spending habits has gotten from bad to worse. Even my one week allowance money would be gone by, say Wednesday or Tuesday, so I'll probably be left with only $2? If im lucky, $5. Being into fashion, whenever I see pretty clothes - regardless expensive or not, I will still buy it. If I can't afford it, I'll borrow some money. Im really sick of myself being so poor and spending so much money.But this cannot continue, plus I feel guilty as well.. because im spending my lunch money on things like these. People might think, so what, its just lunch money, just skip lunch! But to me, its the money my mother gave me FOR food and not these things! I need to curb my spending habits.

And truthfully speaking, my father earns little, god knows why when he's like, a fucking senior designer and he would at least have at least 1 fine for speeding, illegal parking - whatever. Each time, one comes, it'll be like around $150 ~ $400. Like, four fucking hundred dollars. Like, can you not fucking speed?

Ultimately, if we had hosting jobs here, I think I would have to work part time in a kyabakura, and I don't mind working there because if I work there, I can help to pay the house bills as well as support my own spending. Too bad we don't have any here. Well, not that I want to. Well, I do earn money sometimes, but its just small cash. Enough for me to eat, probably, but what I probably spend will be around double my earnings. I do ordering services from online shop owners by the way.

So, this is just the life of an average poor fashion-victimised teenager.

And I hate people who judge.

That's all for now I guess..